taking a break

unfortunately, i am taking a break from my 4am wakeup calls this morning due to being extremely exhausted and subsequently, not feeling well at all. ugh. and, just when i was starting to get into a groove, too. oh well...hopefully, i will be feeling better by the weekend!

this past weekend, my mom and sister were in town (for 24 hours). it was great to have them both here..even if all they wanted to do was shop! ;) i didn't really get anything..i'm trying to get things tied down financially, but it was still nice to spend time with them. friday night, we ate dinner at red rocks in south park. yummy! :) the bridesmaids dresses were picked up and by the skin of my teeth, it fits. basically, i need to keep up my workouts because my top half can't get any bigger! i blame my mother. ;)

let's see...tonight, i have a artitudes committee meeting at the mmc+d at 6:30 (so basically, i'll screech home, let bella out, change into jeans, put bella back in her crate and hurry downtown). my mother has requested my presence this weekend (she wants to have a garage/yard sale next weekend), so i have to change bella's vet appointment. so, i will be around labor day weekend, and i am going to enjoy it! i am going to continue priming my apartment (i have a $10 off $50 card at lowes that will expire, so that will go for another tub of primer) and relax. :)

hope everyone is having a great week so far...here's a birthday shout-out to brent. apparently, he reads my blog (another anonymous reader!), so...happy birthday brent! here's to being another year closer to the big 3-0. :D

wordless wednesday take 2

to appease the asu alumni/fans i may have offended with my pre-season/pre-game banter, let me offend you in another way. this is the guy that i once believed to be the man of my dreams, the keeper of my heart (brad bardon).

WHAT was i thinking????
if only for the fact that i hate tattoos--especially large, visible-in-normal-clothing ones.
(that wasn't there when i was in love with him.)
none to worry, this picture is from his honeymoon...
yep, she can have him.
oh, the power of the internet.

wordless wednesday.

17 days until...

victory!

saturday, september 5, 2009
east carolina pirates
vs
appalachian state mountaineers
greenville, nc

Weekend Preview

Nothing exciting planned for this weekend...I aim to prime the living room, kitchen and dining room so once I decide what color goes where, the walls are ready to go. Saturday, I will officially start my new exercise regime. I'm excited. I'm sure I'll be sore come Monday, but it'll be worth it. I do need to decide if I am going to train for the half marathon in December..there is a cap of 3500 runners and if I register by August 31st, the fee is only $50. Hmm, guess we'll see how this weekend goes??

Next weekend will be more exciting. On Friday, I am working 1/2 a day and getting off at noon. :) I have a hair appointment at 1pm, to get my color done. It's been 4 months since my last appointment and the color has grown out and I'm back to being light brown/blonde. I think I'm going to go back to brown with red/blonde highlights. I'm doing it now so I can get it done again before Paige's wedding. :) Friday afternoon, my mom & Paige are coming to Charlotte to shop for Mom's MOB dress/suit and hopefully find shoes for the bridesmaids..So, I'll be cleaning again to get the place ready for their arrival. :)

Hope everyone has a fabulous rest of their Friday...I need to get some comments sent to CESI before the end of business today as well. Ack! Where does the day go?!

See you Monday! Maybe I'll even take pictures of my primed walls to post?! :)

Wordless Wednesday

New Chapter

New heart, new chapter...

So, in order to motivate me to get back into shape - not just for the wedding, but just so I'll feel better about myself - I am going to register for a couple 5k's that are coming up in September and October. I love to run and I love having a goal, a finish line. The first one I'd be able to do is September 19 but I'm not quite sure I'd be quite ready, but the Brixx race is the following weekend, September 26.

I bought a little notebook this weekend, to keep track of my progress. I'm going to start on the treadmill..I HATE treadmills but they're the best way to get back into the swing of things, and since it's so dang hot here..Once I'm able to keep a good pace, I'll take it outdoors.

And don't worry, I'm not going to push it too hard, too fast. At this point, my goal would be a 35 min. 5k which would be SLOW for me. ..In college, I was running pretty close to a 7 min. mile. But, I'll start slow and work my way down. And, if I stick with it like I'm planning on (it helps that my complex has a gym), there's a 15k (9.1mi) in Cornelius in October and a half-marathon (13.1 mi)/marathon in December. Obviously, I'm working towards the half-marathon.

Wish me luck!

See you later...

My letter to Brent...

They say "it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all," and I completely agree. People come in and out of our lives every day - some just stay longer than others and take hold of our hearts. Most times, it hurts when they leave - or when you leave them. Love is a magical experience that I wish everyone could know. Anyone can experience lust and mistake it for love, but when it's real...it's AMAZING. So, yes, I firmly believe it is better to lose at love than to never love at all...than to never experience the greatest connection between two people.

Learning when love is lost leads me to another cliche: "Everything happens for a reason," which is entirely true. No one can dispute it whether you believe God is in the driver's seat, you are or some other force. Everything has a cause and a consequence. Love comes in and sites down. Either it gets up and walks out or it says forever. Unfortunately, in our case, love came and stayed for awhile; but now, I'm pretty sure it's time for it to move on - time for us to get up and walk away.

My heart is raw, I won't lie. But, it is beginning to heal, and I know it will. If my heart can heal after my last heartache/heartbreak (Brad), I know it can heal again. I also know it will love again too - probably many times over. As I'm sure yours will too. Yes, you broke my heart and now it's my duty to pick up the pieces to travel down another path - to write a new chapter in my book of life.

So, Friday night Brent and I said our "see you later's". I hope that we do because he is a good guy, it just wasn't our time. He's heading into his last two semesters of grad school and then who knows where he'll go? He's on the brink of a grand new adventure and I certainly wouldn't want to hold him back or be a distraction. It hurts but it's the right thing to do. The right things to do rarely are the easiest, but it's easier to heal from them, that's for sure. I wish him all the luck in the world, and I hope he doesn't mind me posting part of my letter...

A buoy clinging to the sea.

I'm not sure if anyone will be surprised, because my mother wasn't, but Brent and I are on a break..but at this point, I'd just assume we break up. His reasoning for the break doesn't exactly give much hope that our relationship will survive. To say that I am hurt, would be an understatement. But, it's nothing I haven't dealt with before, picking the pieces of my broken heart up off the ground. I'm going to do up at some point this weekend and take him the few things he had at my house, along with a couple other things. I'm not sure if we're going to try the whole "friend" thing or not..since we hardly talk anyways but I guess we'll see. I'll keep you posted, I guess.