how i felt this week..

disappointed.

depleted.

depressed.

unmotivated.

angry.

exhausted.

lost.

waste of space/time/energy/etc.

thursday marked 8 months since my last day at the office. since january, i have applied for 29 positions, had 7 interviews, and here i sit. it sucks. and the truth of the matter is that monday, i got an e-mail from a planning director which informed me another candidate had been selected. this is a municipality i interviewed with when i was first getting into planning, for the same job. i REALLY wanted this one. and the fact of the matter is, that i lost. i lost. i thought it was my best interview yet. i was perky and enthusiastic and felt like i answered the questions better/confidently. and i lost. am i too confident? too perky? too eager? who knows. i even e-mailed this person in hope of getting some feedback (beyond competitive applicant pool & qualified candidate jibber jabber) and/or some tips to no avail. ugh. so this week, was my pity party.

culmination blouse

well behaved jacket

switching lanes cardigan

(navy)

obviously, i got in some retail therapy this afternoon...it was more about getting out of the house. but i am ecstatic to report that these items came home with me. i've been lusting after the blouse and jacket for quite some time..and bonus! last night i found the jacket to be on sale! :) the striped sweater was on sale too! and a pretty bracelet. :) i love anthropologie (although i still believe the stores in charlotte are way better than the one at southpoint).

vs

saturday, september 18

~ 1:30pm

lane stadium ~ blacksburg va

"it's going down! argh!"

it's a new season with a new coach, a new qb and 7,000 additional seats at the stadium (to make 50,000+/-)...sold out crowd for the first game of the season and the pirates did not disappoint! ecu defeats tulsa 51-49! :D

did you see that?!

september 1. how can it already be september?? now it's been nearly 8 months without so much as a bite on the line at a new job...i've had 7 interviews and the past 2 have been ones i REALLY want (not that i wasn't interested in the others, but these 2 have the added bonus of not having to move right away & would give me more time to find a fabulous new home for the two of us). i can say that for both, i made it to the top 11 (and for yesterday's: 440 applications, half made it through the hr screening, and then they narrowed it down to eleven. they'll pick 2-4 candidates who will be interviewed by the director, who will make the final decision. oh, i hope i get a call back!). so, the job hunt remains numero uno on my monthly "to do" list. the rest is as follows:
1. JOB
2. paint my room (eucalyptus, like my bathroom)--planned for LABOR DAY weekend!
3. redecorate my room with new bedding, rods, panels, etc.
4. get a frame for my bed, since the one it's currently on is the one i brought back from charlotte in march/april.
5. make a headboard?!
6. redo the "jessica" piece my aunt & uncle gave me years ago. it's a gold frame with a yellow mat, cut with "jessica," and a white back mat. so, i want to spray the frame silver/nickel (or find a ready-made frame), paint the yellow mat dark gray, green or eucalyptus, and remount it.
7. go through EVERYTHING i brought back that's boxed up, sort and re-pack/re-box.
8. start to work on the bonus room...this is a HUGE project and will take more than a month, i'm sure.
9. stay consistent with the gym...finally get some sort of muscle tone, preferably around my middle. ;)
10. church. i went last saturday to the summit and would like to go again..saturdays are more ideal than sunday mornings!
11. whatever else i can cram into this month!

hope everyone has a great month and a great labor day weekend.