i have a confession. i have fallen off the working out wagon. i was going strong there for awhile, completed my foundations courses and then BAM! it all seemed to happen at once. we went out of town for the vt/ecu game. i found out i didn't get one of the jobs that i REALLY wanted (& thought i actually might get) and got pretty depressed. then, once i got over that the world wasn't over and that there are more jobs out there to be had, i got sick (oh, and my ear swelled & burst TWICE during these past few weeks!). that's about 3 weeks of loser-ness. why am i admitting this to the world?! to be held accountable. because like getting to be a planner somewhere new, getting fit & healthier is something i really want to say that i am.
i thought the start of october would mean a fresh start..get back into it, get my life back on track..but last week, i just wasn't into it. plus, i found out that i could go to the women's class at 9am, and that there's a class at 11am, so i wouldn't have to face the people in the 430-7 classes with shame if i didn't want to. i really was going to go today..but i stayed in bed too long. whoops! so tomorrow is the day! i think i may try the 9am class first (but if i miss it, there is the 11am) to see what it's like...i just kinda feel like a big loser. so, that's gonna change.
in job news, i'm on the edge of my seat waiting to hear back from the two jobs (va & nc) this week. i'm sending off another packet today (nc) and will be applying for one more job (a HUGE step down, but hey, it's a job)...and then will be waiting for more to post. the end of summer has brought a serious slump in postings..and since i said i'd give this unfortunate turn of events a year, i have until january 19 to find another planning position. after that point, i'll really have to start looking at my options..my mom thinks i'd make a great copy editor/graphic designer/home designer/etc. so it gets me thinking that maybe..just maybe..planning isn't the field for me. being unemployed sucks because you have all this time to doubt yourself. i love planning..i love the people part, the knowing what's coming part, the conflict, the success..everything. so to think that it may not be what i'm supposed to be doing for my career is heartbreaking...heartaching stuff. i've been praying about it..and am anxiously yet patiently waiting to see what God does.
wow, this post was just supposed to be about how i went from a motivated mini-FA to a constantly depressed, less motivated mini-FA and it really turned into a confession on all accounts. well, you can't fault me for being honest.
i thought the start of october would mean a fresh start..get back into it, get my life back on track..but last week, i just wasn't into it. plus, i found out that i could go to the women's class at 9am, and that there's a class at 11am, so i wouldn't have to face the people in the 430-7 classes with shame if i didn't want to. i really was going to go today..but i stayed in bed too long. whoops! so tomorrow is the day! i think i may try the 9am class first (but if i miss it, there is the 11am) to see what it's like...i just kinda feel like a big loser. so, that's gonna change.
in job news, i'm on the edge of my seat waiting to hear back from the two jobs (va & nc) this week. i'm sending off another packet today (nc) and will be applying for one more job (a HUGE step down, but hey, it's a job)...and then will be waiting for more to post. the end of summer has brought a serious slump in postings..and since i said i'd give this unfortunate turn of events a year, i have until january 19 to find another planning position. after that point, i'll really have to start looking at my options..my mom thinks i'd make a great copy editor/graphic designer/home designer/etc. so it gets me thinking that maybe..just maybe..planning isn't the field for me. being unemployed sucks because you have all this time to doubt yourself. i love planning..i love the people part, the knowing what's coming part, the conflict, the success..everything. so to think that it may not be what i'm supposed to be doing for my career is heartbreaking...heartaching stuff. i've been praying about it..and am anxiously yet patiently waiting to see what God does.
wow, this post was just supposed to be about how i went from a motivated mini-FA to a constantly depressed, less motivated mini-FA and it really turned into a confession on all accounts. well, you can't fault me for being honest.
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